The Scale

Your life’s purpose is not to lose weight.

I used to be so consumed with the scale. My mother’s voice playing in my head.

I would base my self-worth on those digits on that screen smaller than the palm of my hand.

I distinctly remember telling the doctor I refuse to get on the scale!

I thought that the fluctuation up or down of those numbers meant that I was l somehow lesser than. .

Standing high and .looking down over my giant round stomach. I peered over to those little numbers and felt them slam down on my shoulders like a ton.

That feeling sometimes still shows up in my life, it’s this painful gnawing feeling of the scale looming over me and taunting me.

I never want to put on a persona that I do not struggle with because I so often do.

I just want to continue to remind people that they deserve to love their full total selves.

Your worth is NOT measured by the scale.