#LTB: August 24, 2019

I look back on my posts from my two year relationship with abuse. I was crying out for help but I didn’t even know I was. No one knew. I couldn’t be helped because I didn’t say I needed help. I did know how to. I didn’t even realize the damage that was being done to me on a daily basis. I now live in a constant state of defensiveness and paranoia. I don’t trust any one nor their motives. But one day all of this will be an afterthought. The work is hard but I am worthy of it. 

I follow the signs.